Look up at the stars....

11:14PM

Current mood: lazy

Current music: my parents bitching again

(Make A Wish)

1:05AM

i think its staring to finally hit me that its my senior year, its just so weird because high school has gone by so fast

its making me sad

really sad

ive been looking back on these past three years and it feels so recent but it really hasnt

i have regreted things that i did and didnt do more than i actually realize

im nervous about this year

i dont want it to come so fast because i know that it will be gone just as fast

i have so many mixed emotions right now, i feel like im going to cry, actually

this year is going to be insane, im nervous that i will have a bump towards graduation but im determined not to let it not allow me to graduate

im going to do my best to makes this a great year

i really wish i could live with david, that would be amazing

Current mood: sleepy

(Make A Wish)

6:01PM

[Verse 1:]
I never promised you a ray of light,
I never promised there'd be sunshine everyday,
I give you everything I have, the good, the bad.
Why do you put me on a pedestal,
I'm so up high that I can't see the ground below,
So help me down you've got it wrong, I don't belong there.

[Chorus:]
One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn't say so
you wouldn't say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you

[Verse 2:]
I always said that I would make mistakes,
I'm only human, and that's my saving grace,
I fall as hard as I try
So don't be blinded
See me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin,
so pull me from that pedestal,
I don't belong there.

[Chorus:]
One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn't say so
you wouldn't say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you

Why you think that you know me
But In your eyes
I am something above you
It's only in your mind
Only in your mind
I wear a
I wear a
I wear a Halo

One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn't say so
you wouldn't say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you

Current mood: groggy

Current music: randomness

(Make A Wish)

4:01PM

[mood| angry]
[music| bullet with a name ]

i feel like i can only trust myself now...which makes me sad

(1 Shooting Star | Make A Wish)

2:32PM

what do you do when you have no motivation in life anymore??
no motivation to finish my paper that is a day late or my SSR that is more than one day late??
no motivation to work??
or even to work out??
no motivation to be happy and cheerful??
no motivation to do anything but sleep or watch tv??

Current mood: angry

Current music: the radio

(1 Shooting Star | Make A Wish)

11:38PM

i don`t forgive people because i`m weak
i forgive them because i`m strong enough
to understand people make mistakes

she's a little scared to get too close
to anyone because everyone that said
"i'll be there" left

anyone can give up. it's the easiest thing in the world to do.
but to hold it together
when the world expects you to fall apart;
that's true strength ♥

Current mood: confused

Current music: one boy, one girl

(Make A Wish)

12:03AM

[mood| sad]
[music| nothing]

in the beginning,
you made me smile,
you made me laugh,
you gave me something to look foward to,
when i was having a bad bad,
you brought happiness to my life,
and gave me a great time,
yet people wonder why i cant get over you,
when you got over me.
its just because in that short time,
i was happy with myself,
for once,
i was happy with you,
and i had nothing to worry about,
because you were there,
and even tho we are not together,
you can still bring a smile to my face,
but you dont even know it.

(Make A Wish)

10:01PM

"So tonight, she'll play her music extra loud so she doesn't have to think about a boy that doesn't think about her anymore..."

its so weird that just one phone call to just say "hi" can make my day and cheer me up, i wish it would happen more and he could see how happy it makes me to have him just call because he wanted to talk to me...

Current mood: shocked

Current music: country

(Make A Wish)

9:02PM

[mood| disappointed]
[music| something sad]

i meant nothing to him, out of all that happen, i was just something small, pretty much meaningless, he didnt say it in those words but that was he jist of it, it was only like a day or so, fuck, no it wasnt, he didnt act like i meant nothing to him, he acted like he cared, i guess i just believed that actions speak loader than words, i mean they do but i thought actions were also truthful, i guess not, well fuck him, i shouldnt waste m time on him, tho i wish i could, i want to, i care about him too much but im just nothing to him...

(1 Shooting Star | Make A Wish)

3:56PM

[mood| stressed]
[music| Dido]

"Honestly OK"

I just want to feel safe in my own skin
I just want to be happy again
I just want to feel deep in my own world
but I'm so lonely I don't even want to be with myself anymore
On a different day if I was safe in my own skin
then I wouldn't feel so lost and so frightened
But this is today and I'm lost in my own skin

And I'm so lonely I don't even want to be with myself anymore

I just want to feel safe in my own skin
I just want to be happy again

"Hunter"

With one light on in one room
I know you're up when I get home
With one small step upon the stair
I know your look when I get there
If you were a king up there on your throne
would you be wise enough to let me go
for this queen you think you own
Wants to be a hunter again
wants to see the world alone again
to take a chance on life again
so let me go

The unread book and painful look
the tv's on, the sound is down
One long pause
then you begin
oh look what the cat's brought in
If you were a king up there on your throne
would you be wise enough to let me go
for this queen you think you own
Wants to be a hunter again
wants to see the world alone again
to take a chance on life again
so let me go
let me leave

For the crown you've placed upon my head feels too heavy now
and I don't know what to say to you but I'll smile anyhow
and all the time I'm thinking, thinking

I want to be a hunter again
want to see the world alone again
to take a chance on life again
so let me go.

(Make A Wish)

12:57AM

verdriet

Current mood: calm

Current music: country

(Make A Wish)

8:08PM

[mood| annoyed]
[music| michelle branch]

i give up
i give up in finding a great guy
in finding love
in school work
theres no point for school
i give up on trying to please people
and having them like me
if i want to act how i want, i should
i give up on ever finding someone
it wont work
i will end up old and alone with cats
headachs suck
a sad chick-flick and comfort food does work
it somehow does make you feel better
i wish i had more chick-flicks

"i don't love him, i just like to kiss him"

"haven't you noticed, when the opposite sex gets together, evuntually someone ends up getting hurt."

I wish I could wake up with him lying next to me,
so my dreams could blend seamlessly into reality.

That doesn't really matter, Lucas. 'Cause in the end it all hurts just the same.

(Make A Wish)

9:32AM

[mood| productive]
[music| nothing]

the past few days were fucking amazing, or atleast all that i could remember, i cant even describe it...

( Read more... )

(1 Shooting Star | Make A Wish)

11:53AM

[mood| hyper]
[music| some country song]

theses few past weeks have been soooo amazing that i havent had time to update
ive been hanging out with chelsea and logan and now becky
its awesome
guys suck tho
you can pour out your heart to them and they dont seem to care
so i dont have one right now
but im getting over it
there not point of wasting over a guy who wouldnt do the same
so im gonna show him what hes missing
and he will see what he could have had
but i wont be there
tonight is gonna be awesome
and so will tomorrow night
i need to go get ready
but im loving life right now...

(1 Shooting Star | Make A Wish)

11:44PM

we are amazing perfect together...he just doesnt see it yet...

Current mood: bitchy

(Make A Wish)

12:33AM

As her eyes roll towards the back of her head in exhaustion
She realizes how much she needs help.
She hasn't been getting much sleep,
And it's starting to have an effect.
She screams into the night, begging for somebody.
Anybody, to tell her she's okay.

"Tonight i wanna cry"
Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
Theres pictures of you and I on the walls around me the way that it was and should have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

Well I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.

Would it help if i turned a sad song on
"All by Myself" would sure hit me hard, now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

Cause I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.

Well I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with this pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.

Current mood: peaceful

Current music: country

(Make A Wish)

12:01AM

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Current mood: confused

Current music: dixie chicks

(Make A Wish)

7:20PM

[mood| contemplative]
[music| radio ]

shes just a girl standing in front of that boy
asking him, to love her

(Make A Wish)

10:25PM

[mood| anxious]
[music| the radio]

I WISH EVERYONE DIDN'T HAVE SUCH
HiGH EXPECTATi0NS 0F ME... BECAUSE iT'S
BAD EN0UGH i LET MYSELF D0WN... i D0N'T
NEED T0 LET EVERY0NE ELSE D0WN T00

im smiling, just smiling
even though today at worked sucked and i didnt see him
im still smiling
because i will see him tomorrow
i had an awesome night last night
if he only knew how exactly i felt
i want to know how he feels
i cant wait
hes been on my mind all day
everyone who i talked to today knows that
nothing else took my mind, even when i was working
i was thinking of him
i hope it lasts because im falling hard
its more fun that way anyways
you have to live a little
and take a chance, life wouldnt be fun if you didnt...

(Make A Wish)

12:19AM

[mood| happy]
[music| fall out boy]

ive been very moody lately, but mostly happy
realized some stuff
and figured other stuff out which has made things better
but there always that point when your just down and sad about things
ive been dealing with too much shit
i dont need all of it, i shouldnt have it in my life
but im stuck with it
ive been falling in to old habits
they arent always good
but i liked them
ive been very distant from everyone
thats my habit
i like it very much tho
its what im use to
i like to be just by myself, to be in my room and read
man, i can remember when i was a kid and being homeschooled
i would finish my work early and then sit in my room in the sun and read
for hours
i loved it
now im just rambling and my moms yelling at me to go to bed
but i have to finish my homework
so i'll go do that and maybe get some sleep...

(Make A Wish)